cas

cas text me today she had commented on my myspace about me being back in number one then text me latter saying that they were going to start the addoption prosses... i really hope that it all works out smothly for them... i hope that this next cycle works for them and that she will find her self pregnant soon. i wish so many good things for both of them. i dont think she understands how hurt i am that she has cut me out... i dont think she understands how much i really do hope and pray for all good things for her. i hope one day we can be like we were before... but i dont think she thinks of me that way any more... (that came out sounding weired but you know what i mean) i dont know what else to say but i love her and david and hope that everything works out for them...

i still dont know how to tell her that im preggo... chuck thinks i should just post it on myspace or text her. i think i will text her tmw. dont really know what to say. i hope she is excited for me... i so wish that i could have told her sooner. =(